my only conceivable reason to be alive</br>
is one more reason why i think i should die</br>
they all still think im a theif, and its just not fair</br>
i didnt stick to my guns, but now i just dont care</br>
learn to penetrate the shell, the inner outer layer</br>
i got too high, and so I put on some old school slayer</br>
crude matter arms dont matter, they seem to just do harm</br>
you didnt leave them at home, to detach all the smoke alarms</br>
</br>

some day you will see that</br>
im talking to myself</br>
and someday ill realize</br>
theres more to life than it decides</br>

</br>
The world turned its back, and ignored my attacks</br>
I sat alone, unbeknown, to all those so called facts</br>
Falling deep into night terrors, I wake in a cold sweat</br>
lobotamized, i enjoy my newly found mindset</br>
I regroup, only too late, always a step behind you</br>
Ill wait by the phone, so i can hang up on you</br>
except if you dont call, i dont what to do</br>
I guess Ill go lie down, and silently hate you</br>
</br>

Everyday is like the same one passed,</br>
And every moment, is just like the last</br>
A repetition of when I lost myself, </br>
all thatıs left was their lingering smells</br>
</br>
my final act, was to create yours</br>
with eyes blind, yet kept a steady course</br>
the collision gave way to the crumbling earth</br>
the moon in the sky, the earths afterbirth</br>